yeh.... yeh

yeah, i knmow.. ive been busy tho


ive joined a karate class, but not any general karate, im participating in Tang Soo Do... look it up

also!

ive moved, i have packed up and left the shit hole that is eagle's landing appartments. my new place is still a crap hole, but i am living in it by myself with just me and my rabbit. which i feel bad thta she doesnt have another animal in general to play with and i went to pet co. the other day and they still have the same three rabbits they cant find good homes for, unfortunately, my mother said "NO!!" to me getting another pet untill i am able to get a job with some income of my own.

my new bathroom is SO MUCH FAIL!!!! i really miss the bathroom in eagle's landing... and i think that 2 bedrooms and a gigantic living room is too much space for just myself and i would be just as happy in a studio apartment. the sink in the bathroom is so filled with hair and gunk from the previous owner that i cant use the sink because no water will go down the drain, or at least it takes several hours for a few ounces of water to "go away"

OMFG side note: im sitting in the karate dojo using their internet and just now someone in the office just had a M. Jackson "Thriller" ring tone.....

where was i ?

oh yeh.. for some reason at my new apartment they are super stupid about parking and for some reason they dont trust you to put a sticker on your own car window.

the maintenance man must have down syndrome or something because it fails his to realize that i NEED my shower fixed soon, i swear if i have to call the plumber myself i am NOT going to have to pay the bill....when you pull the tab to turn the bath into the shower, the plastic plug is broken or something and all of the water still comes out the bottom and goes straight down the drain; i will not be taking long showers....they need to hurry up and fix this shit cuz i am not happy, and i will not have this... if it is not fixed by the time i get home, i WILL have a fit tomorrow...

UPDATE: they managed to fix the shower the next day and i have been having problems with the internet (posting my blog at via the internet at the dojo)

ive been doing ok with the karate, my form and everything is excellent, but i am having problems with putting force behind the punches/kicks; im not an agressive (physically) person so its hard for me to acually get behind the punches.

long story short

working on various projects

havent felt like doing any blogs recently.

among my projects in motion are

a podcast
a movie
poetry
art
working out

here is the song of the day

Free Cat (ONE-TWO POETRY IN ACTION)

"omg, i must blog about these discoveries."
" gossip on the latest happenings across canna diel.
" ahh ok."
"drama bullshit i wish i had never been a part of, im not currently, not really, but i peeked into the enemy territory and im the cat curiosity killed, for only negative thoughts consume me at this point in time. "

"i better not be a negative thought"

"no, no... your the Searing Light: the carbuncle lighting my path to salvation and happyness"

(from an actual conversation)

This poety is about a real situation, about real people i tried to escape, but as i have yet to learn, many countless times over and over. there is no escaping your past, you must accept all the good and the bad, and remember what "WAS" for what "IT WAS" for you live out each moment and shouldnt let things tarnish the looking glasses with which you look upon the past with.

IN other news:

on the other side of the universe: bombs exploded, storms collided... books were thrown... people got upset, and then drunk and or high.... i dont think... its helpful, useful,or beneficial in any way to ... well.... its like a suicider.. if your going to do it... just fucking kill yourself... dont drag it out for 3 hours...its sad,dont get me wrong seeing a friend leave IS SAD... however trying to drum up sorrow for yourself only makes you look desperate for attention and well.. lets stop there...


That is all i have to say about that

Creative constapation

since nothing is everything now that i have nothing to do and nowhere to be in general, and just waiting for the summer to end. im going to do some writting and music creating as well as attempting to get exercise. here is my 2nd poem of the season. its a simple poem, 2 words per line & 3 syllabuls...it was harder than it looks.


Creative Constapation:

No Outlet

My Cerveau

Bubbling Up

Down Inside

Gurgling In

To Nothing

Cannot Do



Here is the song of the day:

Better, Faster, Stronger

did i ever mention i dont run ?

its because i dont....

SO i started running, this phenomenon started at 3 AM 2 days ago, i dont sweat either, guess breaking two "nevers" in one day is a great feat.

running is not fun, im not accustomed to it, but it will help me get in better shape.

from the looks of it, my job situation wont happen this summer, despite my efforts.

if i cant make money this summer, im going to not be lazy, my ass will be running and working out every day to get into better shape. my running extent is just barely from the drive of eagle's landing to the stop light by southern pines.

Here is the song of the day!

3 bean stew

so ive been working out like crazy (and even taken some before pictures that wont see the light of day) and ive also been sleeping like crazy about 12 hours a day for the past week and still being crazy tired all day. turns out im missing a lot of protein needed to build and maintain muscle. i actually lost about 4-6 pounds. so on thursday i went and raided my fridge and ate all the remaining turkey and cooked and chocked down 5 hard boiled eggs. then i realized that there is a lot of cholesterol so the remaining 7 eggs were eaten with the yellow removed... AKA no cholesterol... im so glad im getting a protein shake mix on monday as well as my car fixed and getting to borrow my dad's (really nice) truck while my car is in the shop and he is gone off to canada bear hunting!



so i finally changed my desktop background, and this is the image.... the guy on the far right in the background is cloud, an amzingly cute and wonderful guy who i am in love with.... id love to meet him one day, i heard he is really nice to his fans....



and this is the new segment in my blog where i post a song chosen from random on my ipod

HISTORY

Real update coming soon! i didnt forget about you guys !!!!

Until then: Enjoy this unreleased version of the song history by madonna...
(dont diss it before you hear it, its a positive song with a good sound)