Human Nature

TUESDAY

Pretty much how i felt all day.

Trying to put things behind me and move on. Then this song came on my iPod..


Express yourself, Don't repress yourself.
Express yourself, Don't repress yourself.
Express yourself, Don't repress yourself.
Express yourself, Don't repress yourself.

And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
It's human nature [it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]

You wouldn't let me say the words I longed to say
You didn't want to see life through my eyes
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]
You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]

Did I say something wrong?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
[I musta been crazy]
Did I stay too long?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't speak my mind
[What was I thinking]

And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
It's human nature [it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]

You punished me for telling you my fantasies
I'm breakin' all the rules I didn't make
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]
You took my words and made a trap for silly fools
You held me down and tried to make me break
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]

Did I say something true?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
[I musta been crazy]
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you
[What was I thinking]

And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
It's human nature [it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]

Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself

Did I say something true?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
[I musta been crazy]
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you
[What was I thinking]

And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
It's human nature [it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]

[I'm not apologizing]

[Would it sound better if I were a man?]

[You're the one with the problem]

[Why don't you just deal with it]

[Would you like me better if I was?]

[We all feel the same way]

[I have no regrets]

[Just look in the mirror]

[I don't have to justify anything]

[I'm just like you]

[Why should I be?]

[Deal with it]

Then i recieved a disturbing message, after i had finally unwinded from the day. i went into hulk mode (putting it lightly) At the end of the exchange of texts i felt ready to fight; physically and with words. The scene in The Dark Knight where the joker is standing in the road taunting Batman...thats how i felt at the end.. wanting more.. to end this silly feud, the outcome no longer matters, as long as its over.

WEDNESDAY!

After breaking things and smashing objects last night and basically going crazy and putting things out to pasture, i felt oddly at peace. yet i had a sence of impending doom all day. Not much happened..

It was cold as shit so that means i didnt get my beloved morning shower today for fear of my ears freezing and causing great pain. i cant wait till summer. While sitting in my german class at 9 AM looking like a hot mess with a shirt 2 sweaters and a 10 pound leather and wool coat from the GAP as well as my pajamas i managed to squeeze under a pair of jeans, and 3 layers of socks..... its 34 out and i dont handle the cold... plus there is so much humidity here it feels like the artic. Good news is no german class on friday because the class as a whole got over 90% on the test on monday (i got 87%) [its a B, but its not good enough, must do better next time]

tomorrow must be productive because i got nothing done....
Thursday is my favorite guest of KATG.com Patrice's Birthday... i cant REALLY donate, so im going to click on her ads on her site HELLANDHEARTACHES.COM for an hour or two...
this blog's title is a link! so click and help a sistah out!

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