this week has been a great break from everything, especially other people. i very much enjoyed having the whole appartment to myself. i got to sing and dance and hoop and holler all i wanted.... this week was nice and warm and i very much enjoyed riding around with the windows open, its been a long winter.
i did my clothes cleaning and i ended up with a pile of shirts up to my waist and i cleaned the rabbit mess (torn up cardboard) from under my bed. did the dishes, went shopping at midnight. clipped lola's nails and got to watch charlie and the chocolate facotry.
got to eat out with tony the other night, his birthday is thursday (he is adorable)
woulld have liked to have breakfast with yet and paddie, but yet never replied to my question "WHEN IS BREAKFAST?!"
Tabby and Kyle are back, and im not ready to stop singing loud, so they will have to deal.. i have till sunday night....
Today i went to meet my new psycologist, and he is gay so i think this will be a good expecience, because he gets "things" other (OLD PEOPLE) might not.... im so glad i didnt stick with that old moldy guy i met last week....
which brings me to a side rant.... people with down/severe retardation and physical deformities... the parents should have the option for genetic fetal screening and be able to abort the fetus if its going to have these problems. im not by any circumstance saying it should be mandatory, but people should have the option to mercy kill their child before it has problems.
i feel this way because, last week i saw this severly retard child who was moaning and screaming a lot. this kid was indian and i dont know about theindian culture, but this grandma was letting this child slobber and scream all over the couch, the couches there were already old, so i didnt want to sit on them....
Today i encountered this man/woman person who had REVERSED JOINTS INT HIS FINGERS!!! omfg these people scare the ever living shit out of me... you know the kind in the special wheelechair and so fat and lop sided they dont sit up straight in them....
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
art
the other night, i went over to sawinsboro
now you may be asking.. why drive an hour to go to a town that smaller than statesboro and nothing to do... well
my friend lives there and she has an amazing costume selection, we got our silly hats on and went into town and each month they have gallery openings as well as a mucisal guest from somewhere around the world come in and woo the locals...
there was these lesbians there who scared me, its ok because i scared her ( i was dressed oddly[understatement]) and she was high...
the band we saw is called staphanie's id. they are on iTunes and they have a myspace... they are very mellow and nothing like what i normally listen to.
now you may be asking.. why drive an hour to go to a town that smaller than statesboro and nothing to do... well
my friend lives there and she has an amazing costume selection, we got our silly hats on and went into town and each month they have gallery openings as well as a mucisal guest from somewhere around the world come in and woo the locals...
there was these lesbians there who scared me, its ok because i scared her ( i was dressed oddly[understatement]) and she was high...
the band we saw is called staphanie's id. they are on iTunes and they have a myspace... they are very mellow and nothing like what i normally listen to.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Pokerface~
SO on monday, a lot of things happened. i got cor to like 17-ish which is fun cuz im learning how to be a drunk gambling pirate.
Me and my lovely assistant Shayla performed a magic trick called "getting stuck in the elevator"
The elevator was making weird sounds, going up slightly and dropping a little, it did this about 8 times. it was a little freaky, and i knew if it did fall.. we'd only fall like 20 feet, we were only going from the first floor to the second.
Our lazy asses are taking the stairs next time
she was more worried about dropping to our death, where as i was worried about not getting to class on time, i was trying to calm her, but nothing i did seemed to help. its amusing to talk about after the fact. i TRY not to get scared, because like it told her, "when you remain calm you can think clearly so you can easily navigate through tough and intense situation" my mom always told me i handle emergencies unusually well.
when my brother and i were tiny tiny little buggers, he split his head open and there was blood everwhere, like i mean her shit was covered and she was in hysterics, at the emergency room, i was like "mom it'll be ok, calm down"
When i took rocco to get nuddered, i got lost at 6 AM on some REALLY backwoods road and was so far out in the middle of nowhere it wasnt funny... the only good side was that i got to see the sky befire the sun was rising (i was headed east) and i got to listen to the radio.
later on i got a call from the doctor, it turns out that Rocco is a girl!
so i think i might want to rename her, the main names are "Amphau" and "Lola"
Lola, Partially after this french song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueR80eHPLTc
Bunny-Face isnt feeling well, so i spent the most of the day watching over her, and making sure she is eatting something, she is peeing so thats a good sign....
Me and my lovely assistant Shayla performed a magic trick called "getting stuck in the elevator"
The elevator was making weird sounds, going up slightly and dropping a little, it did this about 8 times. it was a little freaky, and i knew if it did fall.. we'd only fall like 20 feet, we were only going from the first floor to the second.
Our lazy asses are taking the stairs next time
she was more worried about dropping to our death, where as i was worried about not getting to class on time, i was trying to calm her, but nothing i did seemed to help. its amusing to talk about after the fact. i TRY not to get scared, because like it told her, "when you remain calm you can think clearly so you can easily navigate through tough and intense situation" my mom always told me i handle emergencies unusually well.
when my brother and i were tiny tiny little buggers, he split his head open and there was blood everwhere, like i mean her shit was covered and she was in hysterics, at the emergency room, i was like "mom it'll be ok, calm down"
When i took rocco to get nuddered, i got lost at 6 AM on some REALLY backwoods road and was so far out in the middle of nowhere it wasnt funny... the only good side was that i got to see the sky befire the sun was rising (i was headed east) and i got to listen to the radio.
later on i got a call from the doctor, it turns out that Rocco is a girl!
so i think i might want to rename her, the main names are "Amphau" and "Lola"
Lola, Partially after this french song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueR80eHPLTc
Bunny-Face isnt feeling well, so i spent the most of the day watching over her, and making sure she is eatting something, she is peeing so thats a good sign....
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Stacked against me
i recieved a call from my mom, she might be overly cautious, but she needs me and my brother to get a job to start pulling in some money. My dad might get laid off, and im really upset and disturbed about it. I am really depressed at the moment about it. I consulted my cards, and they confirmed what i had forseen already somewhat. Basically they told me, i cannot do anything but see what happens and that boredom and depression lie in the future along with withdrawl from the situation. I really feel bad when im forced to realize how bad things really are in the world. i just hope and ignore things and spend like i normally would, in hopes that by setting an example people and the economy will turn around.
it seems thats not going to happen.
I called my dad and asked him what exactly was going on, and he said on his last project for work he went into the red big time because he didnt pay enough attention and there isnt another project currently for his department and there was an announcement that a shit ton of people were going to get laid off. they put a lot of effort and time in my dad, sending him to leadership things, overseas to israel to negotiate stuff, and he has been working there for a slong as i can remember, so for every reason they COULD let him go, there is another as to why they COULD keep him...
i guess the agenda for this weekend is
get my phone fixed
write thank you cards
find a job
i wish i could turn to stone, and freeze time so that things couldnt get worse.
I sit here, not wanting to do ANYTHING - i hate waiting for unknown answers....
staring at the cards i feel a different sense of their meaning. I think that things will end up where they have begun. the 4 of cups is a girl sitting under a tree. i think this does symbolise withdrawl, but i get a feeling of peace and tranquility from it. not depression and sadness. The Ace of cups is the center of the cross which is a great emotional source with fire (wands) above and on it. Intense passion and energy.
I'm still learning my cards and what they mean to me. my spiritual healer told me that the cards give a personal emaning, and cannot be truely disciphered by a book or guide.
it seems thats not going to happen.
I called my dad and asked him what exactly was going on, and he said on his last project for work he went into the red big time because he didnt pay enough attention and there isnt another project currently for his department and there was an announcement that a shit ton of people were going to get laid off. they put a lot of effort and time in my dad, sending him to leadership things, overseas to israel to negotiate stuff, and he has been working there for a slong as i can remember, so for every reason they COULD let him go, there is another as to why they COULD keep him...
i guess the agenda for this weekend is
get my phone fixed
write thank you cards
find a job
i wish i could turn to stone, and freeze time so that things couldnt get worse.
I sit here, not wanting to do ANYTHING - i hate waiting for unknown answers....
staring at the cards i feel a different sense of their meaning. I think that things will end up where they have begun. the 4 of cups is a girl sitting under a tree. i think this does symbolise withdrawl, but i get a feeling of peace and tranquility from it. not depression and sadness. The Ace of cups is the center of the cross which is a great emotional source with fire (wands) above and on it. Intense passion and energy.
I'm still learning my cards and what they mean to me. my spiritual healer told me that the cards give a personal emaning, and cannot be truely disciphered by a book or guide.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Sad Kitten Eyes
So yesterday, i went to Galatic to go play cards and hang out, since i havent been able to do that since forever because of my having to make up all those exams and having really hard classes.
It turns out my set up of cards was terrible, and Rikki donated several cards and i managed to get a hold of a second shaymin card, unfortunately i ended up trading it for a set o roserades and roselia's. if i manage to scrape enough money together to get another platinum deck, i will have a second shaymin and another beautifly to round out my deck and it will work really really well... also another night maintenance would be wonderful also since shaymin is a basic...
as i was hangingout with people, i looked over to notice this HUGE guy, he must of been over 300 pounds, and as Keith would say, he is a marshmellow pig. next to him is his daughter. this girl is really small, very pale, blond, thick glasses; i didnt see their whole interaction but i'm pretty dure he was ignoring her for the most part while she sat there not doing anything. i was so angry at that marshmellow pig, i really wanted to say something, because she looked so sad and ignored by her dad while they sat there from 6 to 8. i wanted to put him in his place but embarassing the dad and calling him out infront of the kid (and her being such a young age is not the thing to do)
after galatic closed, there was the SADDEST kitten who just randomly appeared infront of the store. the owner of the store was trying to find a home for it, and no one was able to take it. it was meowing the saddest meow ive ever seen and giving me those helpless eyes that crushed my heart.
later on, me and shayla went over to yetmon and laddipo's house and we hung out and laughed and were crazy till the wee hours of the mornin.
Little girls and kittens and other defenseless creatures pull at my heart strings, i sometimes feel like im supposed to be a guardian of the weak. with a lance and shield and angel wings. i think that is where my character sailor ichi-moon comes from.
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